A quick note tonight..

Time is still cruising as always - this morning Mallie woke up and the first words to me were "Macie go to heaven, she not sick anymore". She was still in her bed with her ears off! I have to admit, it choked me up. We have been so very busy the last couple weeks I still can't believe its been almost a whole month since she left us. I really miss her today! Kinda out of the blue, which I suppose is normal. I still cry about my dad every once in a while and it will be 4 years this fall. Where does time go? This past week a cousin to us, Clara Stakenas, passed on at 86 years old. She was more like a Grandma to us and that is what we called her. She was a great lady with a huge heart, especially for kids. She loved all her kids and grandkids with her whole heart! Mallie actually being like a 4th cousin or something crazy, she always loved to see her too! She just loved seeing her progress and last year I remember how excited Clara was to tell me how happy it made her to see Mallie walking. I wish we would have taken Mallie to see her more! I had the great task of putting together a slideshow for the visitation. It was so fun to see all the pictures of her and her life. Although I was not close with her, she left a lasting impression on me and seeing the pictures of her and Ed, warms my heart. Together for 65 years, that is amazing! Just another reminder of how fast life goes! May she rest in peace! I have been really wanting to plan on getting another dog. Steve is very much against the idea of another dog. Seems the farther we get from the day macie left, the more he fights the idea. I know a puppy is so much work, am I ready for that? I don't know? I just know I am a dog person and I have always had a dog. I feel our home is not complete without one. I want Mallie to grow up with a dog as much as I love having a dog in my life. I know there will never be another Macie but I am sure whatever we decide to get will work their way into our hearts just as much. Things I miss the most 1. Her greeting me everyday when we got home, so happy to see us carrying her toy! 2. I liked that she followed me around and stayed close to me - made me happy! 3. How she used to curl up at the head of our bed and lay her head on me. (she never stayed long) 4. How gentle she was with Mallie 5. The simple words "go for a ride" how excited she got racing to the door! 6. There are crumbs everywhere now where Mallie is (noone to clean them up) 7. She was my walking buddy forever (when I did walk, hehe) There really is so much more, little things, most of all her presence in this house! Really today I am having a bad day I guess in the Miss my dog dept. I promise I am not this sad everyday! Steve says 1-5yrs until we can get another one. I do not like this plan and at the moment there is no talking to him about it. It just makes me mad and he gets mad. I don't want one tomorrow, but would like to plan for this summer. He won't even pretend to be ok with the idea. I am not about to bring a dog home without him being on board. Just wish there was a little more compromising on his part. Maybe its just way to soon for him to think about it because of all he went thru a month ago. I don't know and the thought of a puppy and the training does not excite me. well maybe the thought of a puppy does but the work it will take. I mentioned adopting a dog already trained and he said NO to that too. I guess I can't win on this one. Maybe next time.